Tuesday 7 October 2014

Listen up!

Why is it so unacceptable to actually say how you are feeling.
Why do people ask 'how are you' if they really don't want to know.
Why do we feel that we just have to reply with a 'yes, fine thank you' when inside we are breaking.
Why, when we actually say how we feel the other person looks like you are an unstable being because you told the truth.
And - Why do we have a need to tell social media what we are doing, when we are doing it. And with pictures.

Me, I fall into the category of truth, I cant lie. I tell people the truth about how I am feeling. I blub it all out. I get the - ohmygoshidontwanttohearyourissueswhycouldntyoujustsayfine look. Feel enormously judged and then say goodbye and cry. A LOT. I don't do this on social media!

You see in my head I think - if I ask someone how they are, I actually want to know how they are. I am interested in their life. I want to help if they are not feeling 100% shiny and ready to go.

The thing is. The only person who is reliable in this matter is Jesus.

Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
Jeremiah 29:12

He will listen. He will not fail you. He will not judge you, slam the door in your face and think the worst of you.
And check this out -
And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back from your captivity; I will gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you, says the Lord, and I will bring you to the place from which I cause you to be carried away captive.
Jeremiah 29 13:14

Search. Search with eagerness the Lord your God and will bring you back.
He is the only one who will give you true comfort. He will take you under the eagles wing and comfort you.

Don't wait on people in the natural as you will never be satisfied. It doesn't matter what people of the world think of you. It only matters what God thinks. You are living for him, his purposes.
And he has plans, plans for you. Bigger than you can imagine.
You were never a mistake. You were created at the beginning of time for this time. This moment, for his purpose.

Recently in my Christian book group we read - The purpose driven life by Rick Warren
It is a book that I read about 10 years ago and enjoyed it at the time.
Getting to the end of the book I got a real revelation from God. And it was about Facebook.
I wondered why I post stuff on my page. What was I getting from it. Did it better me?. Did it make me feel good about myself?. Why was there a need?.
I certainly wasn't craving acceptance.
I didn't look on it every minute seeing how many likes I had.
I don't feel the need to envy others.

The answer - I had got into a habit. Not a majorly bad one. But one that I obviously needed a revelation on.
I don't want to be in a habit of being a people pleaser. Wasting time on a page. I don't want to be in a habit of sharing every little detail of my life even down to the food I eat. WHY?
So this is how its going to be. I am not ditching it completely. I have friends and family overseas that I want to keep contact with.
I enjoy seeing what people are up too. But I am just not going to post.

This comes at a time of change for me and a new season. I am starting up my business again and I am very aware that FB is good for that. Its a healthy way to use that social media site. That's what I am going to do. Have a FB business page and use it that way.
Habits are not easy to break and I am fully aware of that. But I am done. I am ready to live my next chapter. I know the plans and purposes God has for my life and I want to live to him.

 “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal;  but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal.   For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Matthew 6 :19-21

So again I write - I will not wait on people in the natural as I will never be satisfied. It doesn't matter what people of the world think of me. It only matters what God thinks of me. I am living for him, his purposes.
And he has plans, plans for me. Bigger than I can imagine.
I was never a mistake. I was created at the beginning of time for this time. This moment, for his purpose.