Tuesday 24 December 2013

Thoughts over breakfast

A week ago I was asked to do a short 5 minutes talk at my Church Women's Breakfast.
Here it is -

Last year I learnt about my identity and who I was In god.
This year I am learning about walking in faith, trusting in god rather than my own understanding.
I am being stretch and as I'm being stretched I am learning more and more to trust in my father.
Before in the natural when I was stretched and trying to organise everything I just felt like I let everyone down. I got stressed.
I wanted perfection.
But there is only perfect perfection in trusting in god.
He guides me to what is important  and the things that aren't just fall to the wayside.
As I am being stretched he has enlarged my capacity to cope.
I get so much more done and I don't know how.
I get to do fun stuff with my kids as well as do all the important things that I need to do.
Christmas is a really important time for me. Not just because Christ was born.
We all have our favourite seasons. Some Sun worshippers, some autumn. I love Christmas. Even when I was little I loved it even when it was difficult because of family reasons I saw the good and remember the exciting parts and traditions above anything else.
This Christmas is probably the most challenging one of all.
God has stripped it right back for me and I am having to learn to trust his above all else.
The super organised part of me (which is a lot) is having to learn to adapt, adjust, be patient. And with all this not worry about that too.
I am way out of my comfort zone.
I don't like it.
I'm nervous.
I want to run back into my comfort zone
Bit if I did that would be avoiding change and god encourages change
Over this time (and I'm still going through it) God has been reminding me so much about the walls of Jericho.
Come on keep coming back and praying. Don't stop on your first trip around, keep walking, keep praying and I will be there to stretch and enlarge your capacity.
They didn't know that they would have to walk around 7 times they just kept walking.
And that's what I need to do. Keep walking, keep shouting out to God
And he will give me enough to cope with and keep enlarging me so I can cope with it.
Now I'm not a morning person.
I hate talking in the morning, the kids wake me up far too early. I have never been a morning person.
But I wrote this at 6.45, whilst I was in bed.
I don't remember picking up my phone and opening my notes.
I don't do things last minute. Down to the wire.
But god has asked me to trust in him.
I didn't know when or how I was going to do it.
But by trusting in god. Praying, walking and praying around Jericho
Things happen on god that in the natural you never thought you could do.
But in the supernatural is possible